Lay me down

It's over, I quit.

I'm about as lifeless as it gets

It's not like I'm worth saving anyways.

I don't belong here, I never really wanted to be here.

Why can't somebody else take my place.

Lay me down, I'm so tired.

Empty Inside, Alive and uninspired.

I'm useless, I'm done.

I've written letters to the ones

I've loved so much that it hurts to say goodbye.

I don't wanna die, I just don't don't wanna be alive.

Lay me down, I'm so tired.

Empty Inside, Alive and uninspired.

Lay me down, I'm so tired.

Empty Inside, Alive and uninspired.

Yea, I feel such a feelin' that I never knew

Something I always thought I couldn't do.

But you don't know anything

That makes me feel life

Except making you bleed five times,

In one night.

You know you deserved it.

Survival

Survival.. It's a funny thing. We fight our whole lives for survival, though we all know, we are not gonna survive life anyway.

A wise man once said: "don't take life too serious, you're not gonna survive it anyway". I consider this a very wise quote. Do what you want to and have fun. Enjoy life - you only get one.
But another wise man told people to make something out of their lives, cause they would never get another. I do not know if you should fight to get a good and long life, or just live every day like there would be no tomorrow.
I do not know what would be the smartest thing.

Some say life is the largest gift you will ever get. What if I hate the fact that I got it?
What if I now wish not to be here? What if all I wanna be is....... Nothing? Gone? Air maybe?
Yes, I would like to be air. I wish that, when the next blow of the wind meets my skin, I would fade. Go along with the wind blow and be free.

Wait.. I think I just figured out what I want to..? I want to be free. I want to not be a prisoner in my own body and mind...