29. sep. 2012

Forklaring

Jeg er forvirret, og jeg synes det er svært. 
Trods erfaring, har jeg virkelig intet lært?
Vil ikke slippe, men er jeg klar til at holde?
"Hvad-nu-hvis"-tankerne frier sig at udfolde,
Hvad nu hvis jeg måtte dig såre?
Jeg ville ikke kunne bære dine tårer.

Jeg er på bar bund, hvad skal jeg gøre?
Hver af dine tårer ville jeg dog tørre.
Men den må stoppe her, for jeg kan intet fastholde,
Vil stadig beskytte dig med svær og skjolde.
Ja, livet er en kamp og vi må udkæmpe den sammen,
I en hektisk distance er det svært at holde til larmen.

Dit galoperende hjerte må du standse,
Jeg kan intet mærke, og derfor ikke danse.
Jeg er hoppet af følelsernes tog,
Over dem er der blevet lagt et låg.
De er der et øjeblik, men så fjerne i det næste,
Og med dig min egen, vil jeg aldrig lade dem teste.

Jeg ville hjertens gerne, men jeg må atter tøve,
For på dit lille hjerte vil jeg dem aldrig afprøve.
Jeg ville ønske jeg kunne give dig noget mere,
Men jeg har kun ét hjerte, jeg kan ikke give dig flere.
Jeg har nået konklusionen, at jeg intet kan bevare,
Intet kan jeg holde fast, og jeg har prøvet at forklare.

26. sep. 2012

Days Go By

The album cover for "Days Go By"
by The Offspring

I've been a huge offspring fan for years, and I was as excited as a child on Christmas, when they released "Rise and Fall, Race and Grace" back in 2008. The style that is loved by all The Offspring fans hadn't changed, and THANK GOD for that! I loved that album, and it completely lived up to the expectations. Just as excited was I when they released their 2012 album "Days Go By", and I wasn't disappointed!! The true offspring style is still there, and just as they were on "Rise and Fall, Race and Grace", the lyrics had improved too! I loved the remake of "Dirty Magic", and I was mesmerized by ALL the rest of the songs on the album. They punk music these days has gotten weak, and not even real punk-ish, but this punk rock album sure brought it back to life again! The funny songs such as "Pretty Fly (For A White Guy)" and "Why Don't You Get A Job", that the band has gotten very famous for, and which everyone can sing along to, has also gotten a new one to the family, called "Cruising California (Bumpin' In My Trunk)". It's funny lyrics and the wonderful and happy 
A picture I took during the Offspring concert in Skive
this summer. 
beat makes me sure, that it is gonna make a hit. 
Also the album titled song "Days Go By" is an amazing work of art. I heard the song when it got released, which was short before I was to see The Offspring live at Skive Festival in Denmark. I stood in front of the scene hours before the band was to go on stage, because I wanted that exact spot in front of the scene. And as I had hoped for I got a spot at the very front in the middle. I was only a few feet away from Dexter when he went to the edge of the stage, and to be honest, I had to stop myself from climbing the fence. The concert was amazing, and they truly nailed it. I was screaming along to every song, and when they played songs from "Days Go By", most of the audience didn't really know what to do, but I was screaming as f*ck the entire time! Guys, you might not be 25 anymore, but you still know how to rock it! I'll never stop listening to offspring. 
Me wearing my favorite Offspring T-shirt.
If you haven't heard or bought "Days Go By" yet, go do it! You won't regret it. 

18. sep. 2012

Horror movie in my head

I wake up at least ten times every night covered in sweat, barely awake long enough to know, that the cruel reality I just escaped was just a horrible nightmare.
Then I fall back asleep, and usually the previous dream continues from where I awoke. Not missing a second of the horrific events. Almost like pressing the pause button on the remote. Awful. 
I cannot escape the nightmares. These nightmares are not those with monsters and blood every where. These are realistic. 
Car crashes with me in the drivers seat and my friends in the back. 
Being humiliated at school. Getting in fights
Standing in a bar and being verbally attacked by someone you think you might know from somewhere.
Having horrible red itching rashes everywhere, that everyone notices.
These things might not sound bad, but the unpleasant aura and the general horror-like mood in the dream makes it bad. Actually feeling the pain as if it was real.. Very real. Screaming from the pain but no sound is to be heard and suddenly... I can't breathe. So I suffocate.

9. sep. 2012

Lay me down


It's over, I quit.
I'm about as lifeless as it gets
It's not like I'm worth saving anyways.
I don't belong here, I never really wanted to be here.
Why can't somebody else take my place.

Lay me down, I'm so tired.
Empty Inside, Alive and uninspired.

I'm useless, I'm done.
I've written letters to the ones
I've loved so much that it hurts to say goodbye.
I don't wanna die, I just don't don't wanna be alive.

Lay me down, I'm so tired.
Empty Inside, Alive and uninspired.
Lay me down, I'm so tired.
Empty Inside, Alive and uninspired.

Yea, I feel such a feelin' that I never knew
Something I always thought I couldn't do.
But you don't know anything
That makes me feel life
Except making you bleed five times,
In one night.
You know you deserved it.

4. sep. 2012

Acceptance


Am I the one misunderstanding or is there
something wrong with the world today?
Shouldn't I be able to live my life, the way 
I want to live it, without being judged by 
all other human beings passing by me?
I dream of breaking free evey night
Every day I am reminded that those 
beautiful pictures are just in my imagination.
People talk about life, as though there is 
only one way to live it, and those who stands
out are the outcast of our generation.
Why? Why does it have to be so hard just to
be you?

How come we never see people with 
"Free Hugs"-signs anymore? What is so 
wrong with wanting to give a little love?
Why is love a tabu in this country? Respect 
is all we ever talk about. Love is only brought
up in closed forums. What is the matter with 
the adults of our community? Where did
the love go? Maybe that is why evey third
marrige end in divorce. Because they marry 
out of respect in stead of love. Possible.
The divorce rate of gay marriages are much
lower - so why do people disguise gay marridge?
Because they actually know the true meaning 
Of marridge? 

I don't understand the adult generation today.
I just can't see how respect and traditions can
be more important than love and humanity.
Love is not a promise to god? It's a promise to
yourself and your partner. In my opinion
the youth have got it right in this one. They are 
more accepting of love and differences, than 
the older generations. Of course there are 
youngsters that doesn't accept either, and 
adults that do, but compared to each other, 
which is more accepting?